Words for a Friend

“Dear G.,

I’m resting in his haven but he’s away because the sun has risen. I know he will be gone. Shall I wait till another dawn, however he might be resting in another haven by then…or shall I sail again on my own without a trace?

-a wounded boat”

The moment I got this offline msg, I starred at the screen for  around 60 seconds. My fingers were on the keyboard but had the faintest clue of what buttons to press. Eventually I clicked the “x” of the window.

…….

That weekend I had a good movie, a nice dinner, some walks in the city and a drink in a deluxe Jazz club. When I returned home recalling my day, suddenly I thought of this.

Everything happens for a reason.

I know I should tell you this. I don’t have answer to your question, and not every question has the answer. All I know, is what happened today, comes from what had happened in the past, which was like riding a roller coaster in my mind for a whole week while I acted calm. And now, the game is finally over.

This sentence may sound too old to refresh your mind, yet it is the truth of the truth.

I have been recalling. What drives me to make some decision? It is the lesson I learnt from the previous error; what drives me to the next decision? It is the result of the previous decision. And the next next decision counts on the result of that previous “next decision”…it goes on and on, and logically linking every slide of life fragment into a book with different related chapters, as long as you use more metaphor and imagination, you make it vivid and rich.

Life will always gift those who are brave enough to dream and action, even the bridges in between are mutilated, haltingly you will reach another side for a brighter future.

Assuming it does happen for a reason, the conclusions for you will be:

life can only move forward while lesson learnt afterwards. Don’t wait and think there’s always time left and only go to conclusions till life is too bulky to carry on, usually things happen all of a sudden that you have no time to ponder, and whether this decision is a panic or mature one, counts on your previous life assemble. Even you made a wrong decision, it is still not too late for the first few times, think positive and you can still walk a crooked way to get back to the right track. the most important thing, is never to make two same wrong decisions on one same or similar thing and still hope for it, that makes nothing but an idiot and empty dreamer.

Don’t ever try to change yourself simply because other judges you by their minds. You change for better only for the right judgment you make for yourself. We always have space to improve ourselves, but you are who you are, the unique one. Your time should be used to complete yourself instead of compromising others, keep on searching till you find the circle that really appreciates and likes you.

Be brave to take whatever will come for things you have decided and experienced.  Nothing is wrong or right but only the way you think it is, and there’s no necessary to regret and doubt yourself. For some people, they are worth staying and waiting for; for some, you have given them time and chance while they realize not, pretend not knowing or react not, you should go and let go, leave a graceful view of back for them to regret not grabbing in time. You need to know how to cherish what you own, you need to know more how to choose and what to give up. 

“Dear,

Everything happens for a reason. Those words are for you, and for myself too. In short, live your own life  to the fullest, like which I am positively tryinig to. Whenever resting in your haven or sailing to the sea, the wound heals itself with a brave heart.

-xG.”