People say I am always smiling. The thing they never know is, my mouth is a little bit droopy so I have to smile a lot in order not to be regarded as cool and arrogant;
People say I am always confident in public. The thing they never know is, my feet are always shaking and my hands are always cold when on stage, the confidence on my face is kind of acting to cheat myself and others, I wear this mask for so so long that people started to recognize it as my true face.
People say I am always lively and enlightening. The thing they never know is, I go back to my own cave as a Martian rather than a Venusian and lick my own wounds, without telling anybody else. Sometimes I sream and cry helplessly and next minute I come out of my cave and sing alound like it has never happened.
People say I am too rational to fall in love. The thing they never know is, I might probably totally blind when it comes to me. Therefore I hestitate a lot and wait for someone to find me and make me fall rather than searching on my own. Unfortunately None could see me through. I was always the one of their regarded-to-be.
People say I look away when they look at me. The thing they never know is, I am not losing my patience or distracting my attention, I am just too shy to stare.
People all have their own secrets. So do I. The thing we never know is, is it better to let them out or still collect them in our chests? We have been seeking for answers to this all our lives. It seems speaking is the easiest way to achieve while it is the most difficult way to practice. Therefore, some turn to music and become composers, some turn to writing and become writers, some turn to performance and become actors, some turn to religion and become believers, some turn to drawing and become painters...Everyone of us are sussing one special way to clean the dust that has been accumulating in our chests for too long, and then clear a little bit more space for more secrets in the coming life journey.
The things I never know, is what drives me to move forward, to seek for an answer, which might be an unknown forever.
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